There is pain and anger all boiling inside
part of me you can't see but part I can't hide.
I shrug and I shake trying to keep it from you
Acting all normal, and trying to smile too.
But my hands are shaking and my face is all red,
I feel these emotions all filling my head.
Like a kettle on the stove I'm about to scream out
this energy and emotion first comes with a shout.
Then rage and anger flows down to my feet,
knowing I should leave and scared of my heart beat.
I'm ready to run and I must go today
before I do something that will keep you away.
It's always the same this cycle of hate
coming with time no particular date.
There is on thing I know and I'l tell to you
step away from me now, this you must do.
Why lord why, do I keep feeling this way
I'm scared and worried that these feelings will stay.
My smile is my weapon that warms my heart
and I think for a minute that these emotions might part.
Come out sun with your happy light
and help this struggling man today and tonight.
I know there is help out here in this place
Can't recognize the voice or even see your face.
But in song and in praise I here of your name
people singing with joy, I want to feel the same.
So tell me where you hide and where I should look
are you for real? or made up n a book.
For now I wait, confused and afraid
for those I have hurt and the mess I have made.
I leave you with this, if your even listening to me
I want to be stronger, a better person, I can be.